It occurred to me this morning as I made the kids' lunches and yelled at Audrey to hurry up and Nolan to get out of the shower that my life has turned into a version of the movie "Groundhog Day."
Every day at the same time, I find myself saying/thinking/doing the exact same thing.
Get up get dressed just a minute no, you can't have soda in your lunchbox where's your backpack do you need your trombone who took my keys where's your water bottle no I'm not signing that hey, that's not your shirt what do you mean you forgot your homework too bad you're gonna be late oh shit you're all late did you brush your teeth did you do your inhaler get changed for aikido no you can't yeah go ahead I'm making ____ for dinner take a shower who fed the dogs feed the dogs did you finish your homework did you read did you do your inhaler did you take your medicine I'm in the bathroom can I have five minutes there's only one of me go to bed take it to your father where is your father don't wake up your father go away I am on the phone....
Lather, rinse, repeat; every day, with a stint at work in between.
Usually around 8 or 9 pm, I pick up the phone, and dial.
At around ten, when silence is golden, I can do whatever I want, watch tv, use my computer uninterrupted, read....
But I fall asleep instead.
It's too quiet.